Ramble/Outlet

So, with the bazillions of things going on right now,

I'm getting in a random break down/ shut down habit.

Poor Aaron.

Last night, I pretty much just shut down on him.

Completely.

Let me get a flow chart for you here to the best of my ability.

This whole DNA test thing?

It's almost like a virgin peeing on a stick.

Even though you know you're not preggo,

it still makes you nervous.

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Family.

I don't even know where to start.

Or if I even should on here.

What the hell is family to me anymore?

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This is where BIG decision making comes in.

If the test comes back positive...

What do I do?

What is the "right" thing to do?

Even though I'm 90% sure it won't come back positive...

It still makes me sweat.

WORK.

The first week of the next month is upon us.

That's known as hell week here at work.

Rent to deposit 

Rent to post.

Pay or quit letters to post on doors and send in the mail.

The beginning of a new lease count.

Back to ZERO.

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Corporate Office.

This goes back to yesterday's post.

The Fairy Tale of some sort?

Refer back to that.

It should cover what I'm getting at.

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Finances.

I could be pulling in a lot of money from my leases right now.

As a matter of fact, I would be seeing it on Friday's check.

Guess what?

Because of the dadgum files being "incorrect?"

I can't.

Don't get me wrong either.

We have money.

We ARE NOT struggling.

It just sucks when you've been putting off getting things you want

because you are supposed to be getting extra money

that isn't accounted for in a budget...

And then not getting it... for weeks on end.

Isn't that what bonuses are for?!

Using them for something that isn't a neccesity?

Hmm... like a grill?

(not for your teeth... you know... the thing you cook on? lol)

or a new XBOX with Kinnect?

or a nice shiny bad ass camera?

OR a pretty hefty down payment on a car?

Just saying...

That's the WHOLE reason why I work.

So we can use what I make to have FUN.

Maybe a little FUN would be a good solution to some of this.

Illness.

Self explanitory, right?

I'm losing sleep over all this anxiety.

Migranes.

Throwing up.

The works.

I need an Ativan.

End of Rant.

I apologize for my large bitching session.

It was much needed.